So I have a question for you all
Ps: im so sorry that I’m doing this in English I automatically start speaking English when I’m talking about something that’s a little painful to tell I hope some of yall can understand it I probably made a lot of mistakes 
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When I was 14-15 my friends made a tinder account to goof around and see if they would notice they where under age after 2-3 weeks they had an obsession with the app and where giggling all the time so I was like “why tf not let me do the same” I saw the fun of it until it got in contact with adults who like the nasty a lot they would ask to meet in person so we could become friends I thought it was going to be fun to make new friends so I went and let’s just say that I’ve been r*ped 3 times at the time I thought it was normal and I didn’t have the guts to run away or slap them or something like that cuz I was already raped when i was 3 almost 4 and I had a hard time defending myself when it came to men so i didn’t think much of it back than and shook it off I deleted the app but forget to delete my account and my ig and snap where on my bio so I kept getting friend request without knowing where they came from so after a while I met a guy he told me he was 21 and told me all the right things that he wanted to love me
Blablabla so I believed him like the dumb ass I am and we started “internet dating” and for 8 months of him ghosting me when we were supposed to be meeting cuz he knew what he did was illegal and once we met he could go to jail... so after not talking for a while he popped up with the same bullshit and this time he was more aggressive he showed dick picks and demanded I would send some of myself otherwise I was a loser and once again I drank from the dumb bitch juice now he had power over me and almost forced me to be naked in front of the camera while FaceTiming I kept saying no but he would hang up the phone and call me back 5 minutes later to ask the same question and said hurtful stuff so I would show my naked body but keep in mind I was 15 almost 16 I WAS STILL UNDER AGE he manipulated me over and over again until I was 17 had my shit together and realised what he did was not right a few months before I was supposed to turn 18 he contacted me again and wondered if I wanted to earn extra money we are talking about 800+ a month for photos this part is all on me it was again a stupid move but I really wanted to move out of my house so I accepted i send nudes, videos and my 16 yo friend did the same he paid her like 250 because she didn’t send ass much as me I was supposed to earn 1500 in total i lowered it to 745 because he turned out to be broke af I have him 2 weeks to pay me after that I said i wanted 1400 before the end of the month and he called me crazy and blocked me and I didn’t get any money
After that I went to the police and told my story just to hear that what I did wasn’t smart and that I couldn’t even put a declaration on his name while he was: grooming me, manipulating me, had (maybe still have) child porno from at least 3 different girls and probably more, so I don’t understand why they haven’t arrested him yet I even showed them a photo of the scumbag, his bank number where he works AND his name. I even contacted his work to let them know what was going on and he told them he didn’t do all of that yall I know a lot of this is my fault and I’m deeply ashamed of what happened but I really want to put and end on my being raped past
I just hope one of you know what I should do next because I don’t know it myself
I am now 18 and I live in the Netherlands if that’s any good
