Hallo allemaal,
Ik schrijf mij verhaal in Engels, omdat ik kan niet goed Nederlands schrijven Ik kan deze lezen en begrijp deze, maar schrijven is moelijk
Around two years ago, me, my older brother, younger brother and younger sister left our parents in Syria. Because of something that happened in the war, my mother is not able to come with us. She is not able to walk long distances anymore and that’s difficult when you have to flee…. That’s why my father stayed with her and we were leaving Syria. That moment was for sure one of the most difficult days of my life………
During the corona time, it was a bit difficult at home.. I miss my parents and so do my brothers and sister. Normally it’s difficult already, but now I had to do my own homework and help the young ones too.. The younger 2 were sad a lot, they miss their parents and I had to be strong and help them with it… So, there was not really time for myself to be on my own and feel what I feel….
Today I got back in school. My mentor asked all of us: how do you feel, how was the corona time, how was the working going…? I didn’t really want to answer, I don’t want to talk about it with my classmates, so I said that it was ok and that I was fine.
Then after the lesson, when leaving the classroom, my mentor said: … can you stay in the class please?
When everyone was out of the class, he told me that he saw sometimes on the videocall that I had a difficult day/time. I said him that I am ok. Then he asked me if that’s really how I was feeling… Then I started to feel sad, and told him that I didn’t want to talk about it, because it’s difficult.
But he said it’s important to talk. I understand that, but… it makes me sad if I talk about how I feel and I don’t want people to think I am weak. And I also don’t want people to worry about me. So, if I know that something will make me sad, I don’t talk about it a lot and I say that I am fine. Just hide the real feeling.. I don’t want to get sad with someone around…… But now, I think that I am pretty sure that my mentor tries to talk about me again on Wednesday..
How do you do these things? What do you say to your mentor if he or she want to talk with you about something that will make you sad? Do you care about people see you being sad?
I hope to read some advices and also maybe some people who know situations like this…
Thanks
Nog een keer sorry dat ik schrijf niet deze alles in Nederlands…