heb ik depressie?

Ok, so over the last few months (maybe a few years at this point, I don't know) I've been doing all sorts of things to find out if I have depression.

For as long as I can remember, I've always made jokes about killing myself or having depression, but I never thought I ever did have depression. And I definitely wasn't planning on killing myself, but I've noticed something weird. For the last few months, I've been focusing on what I actually enjoy doing, and I realized nothing really makes me happy. I've tried everything at this point. Video games I used to love arts and crafts going outside hanging with friends but in the end they all just make me tired and are boring. But I can still laugh with my friends and stuff.

All though my sleep schedule is rlly bad and I used to be very bad at taking care of myself like I sometimes went 2 weeks without brushing my hair or months without taking a shower. I do shower and brush my hair now but I still skip brushing my teeth. In vacations I often spend my days sleeping till 4 pm. Or js not leaving my room till late. Which often results in me eating dinner as "breakfast" and now that I think about it. Ive been like this for years. But I have a good life. 2 loving parents a sister friends and even a girlfriend I dont understand why I feel like this.

I never thought about actually having depression because I always thought it was worse then this but some of my friends told me I should go see an actual therapist and as much as I love my parents they would never let me get diagnosed with depression. I had to beg for months for them to let me get tested for ADHD because I might have it (my dad has it) and I feel like I've been bothering my friends for awhile too because I also lie a lot. And I recently told them all the lies I've ever said to them. And I thought I would be relieved but im not. Instead im just more pressured because I dont know what to even do when I talk to my friends because all the lies I told basically made my entire personality. I guess this kinda fits under masking but now that the "mask" is off I dont know what to do.

Any advice?

OOps was vergeten te zeggen dat ik het makkelijker vind om on engels te praten