I am having some issues lately with my school and family.. i have started self harm again and i just dont want to anymore. Lately I’ve been talking to a person online via discord. I had vented a lot and found out that he copes with it too. It feels calming to have somebody who has the same problems but i dont think it’s healthy. All of the shit happening is just because I can’t control my aggression, is there any help with that? I really love writing and so does he so we wrote an little poem here it is


I'm paralyzed, I'm scared to live, but I'm scared to die
And if life is pain, then I buried mine
A long time ago, but it's still alive
And it's taking over me, where am I?
I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside
But I don't feel nothing, I wonder why
where Is the person i knew before?
where is the real me?
I am lost and it kills me.

maybe its good to start writing my anger out since im pretty calm after writing.
But still i feel constant numbness even when im calm is there anything i can do to make it better?

i have so many questions…

if somebody like him was in real life for me…

R3d


—daniel